Where has time gone?
That is a common question around this time of the year. The last day of 2024...it just seems unreal, doesn't it? The answer? I have no idea...all I know is that it went way too fast, and at the same time, not fast enough. Marked by loss, anguish, anxiety, fear, I struggle to find moments of beauty. I know they were there, but they are blurred by the dense fog of hot tears. Today, however, I want to take a moment to turn my eyes to the One Who Makes ALL things new...and allow Him to clear my vision and light up the lamp unto my feet so I can see the path that leads me to where I can see the blessings.
Holy Spirit, Divine Gardener of our souls, on this cloudy morning, this last morning of 2024, I pray that You will guide me and inspire me to focus not on the weeds, but on the harvest of gratitude that you have grown all around my fields. Despite of all my efforts to mess things up, You are always creating a way and a purpose. One example of that this year was seeing Grant graduate from College. You took care of him all through his 4 years at Geneva and continue to do so today and for the rest of his life even though I am the most unfit of Mothers. You also took care of Dylan in his injury and have made something great come out of it: a passion, and for that my heart fills with joy. You took care of me in my despair when facing scary health results and surrounded me with the prayers of those angels you've placed on my path. You have walked with Dan every day as he strives to perform in righteousness everywhere he goes. You continue to take care of our extended families near and far. You have planted the seeds of fellowship in our beloved church and have cover us with Your presence and with the warmth of your embrace as we traverse through valleys of shadows and death. You have brought light in our darkness and a shelter in our wandering. You have shown us that You are, indeed, our refuge and strength just as You promised You'd be. Though the tears still flow, I trust You will one day, in Your time and place, wipe them all away.
Looking back at this year, I can say that I recognize how You are the One who can turn graves into gardens. You are the Only One who can make a mess seem beautiful...You are the One who can bring order out of chaos. And for that I thank You. I was reminded this Christmas season that it is not about me or my circumstances...it's not even about family and loved ones...it is all about You. You are the source of our gratitude. Your plan to take on flesh so You could be the Perfect and Only acceptable sacrifice to atone us, and Your decision to dwell in our hearts until You come back again or call us home IS what we celebrate. And for opening my eyes to that truth this year, I am most grateful.
Today, as we close the season and the year a word keeps resonating in my heart, mind and soul...the word is Peace. I know that over the years I have written quite a bit about the concept of peace. Now, I want to re-take it and re-claim it not as a concept in the abstract, but as a tangible reality that is possible to experience regardless of what is going on around us, because Peace is a Person. Peace is Jesus. True Peace is found in the Presence of Christ in us in the Person of the Holy Spirit, the most precious gift we could receive on this earth. So, as I enter 2025 with anxious thoughts and trepidation, I lift up a prayer that the Holy Spirit will manifest Himself in our lives in magnificent ways so we know...really, truly know He is here, so His presence can fill us with the promised peace that should run like a river in our souls.
Have a blessed 2025. May we walk each day knowing He holds us with His loving hand so we can journey in peace. In the Precious Name of Jesus. Amen!