Too Late?

Four years have gone by

And the words still can’t come out

The world is up-side-down

For the love I once thought I had

Is no longer sensed…not sure it was ever there…

Four years have gone by

And now I’m lying on a bed

I know I will never leave of my own will.

I feel life’s end closing in

I’m losing hope I’ll ever see his face once again on this earth.

Four years and a few days

And I still can’t make myself pick up the phone.

Four years and a few days

And I can’t shake off the hate in my head.

I don’t even know how long it’s been

All I know it’s been too long.

I’m grasping my last breaths

Praying he’ll come to me soon enough

before it’s too late.

People say I’m crazy

But I feel it in my gut

The wrong he’s done to me is real

The hurt is not in my head

Anger overcomes me…

No matter what people say, to me it is a big deal!

"Don't wait any longer,
go see him before it’s too late!"

a thorn pokes my heart from a distant place I try to forget,

like a flaming arrow I cannot evade.

Is it too late?

Is it ever too late?

I get in the car

Rushing through sleepy towns at the crack of dawn

The hours feel longer

As I speed on the highway

The whole world seems to slow down just because I’m in a hurry.

I can’t hang on any longer

I have walked through the threshold

The door is quickly closing behind me

I’m sorry son for all the wrongs

I’m so sorry for the pain I caused

It was not intentionally done, please trust me

For I have done nothing but love you

With all my strength, my heart and devotion.

I make an effort not to run through the hallways

But I don’t really know where I’m going.

I’m still so angry, I’m tempted to turn around

But the thought on the back of my mind

Tells me to stay.

Even though it may be too late.

I wish I could tell you how much I love you…

I did the best I knew how

It’s all over now.

It’s too late, it’s too late

Punching the wall, I cry out

It’s too late, it’s too late

Why did you do this to me?

Why did you have to go like this?

It’s too late, it’s too late!

I can’t believe you couldn’t wait!

It’s too late…

I hate you…I love you…it’s too late…

Is it ever too late…is it ever too late to find forgiveness?

Is it ever too late for one last embrace?

Would we ever meet again…where it is never too late?