Well, I wish I were using the title of this post as a metaphor. The truth is, however, the pill is all too real and the swallowing is almost impossible.
I have a confession…I can’t swallow but the smallest of pills. I’ve spent all my life chewing and crushing tablets, opening capsules and having my taste buds infused with the most horrible flavors in the meantime. I can tell you which are the best tasting and the most horrifying pills for the most common conditions…but I won’t…
In a few weeks I will be confronted with a pill I will have to swallow in order for my body to be cleansed and healed…and I have no idea how in the world I am going to do that.
Yesterday, I spent a lovely morning with a new friend who showed me how. She has had to take a variety of supplements since she was a young girl, and she still does today. She told me how she would just put a handful of supplements in her mouth and with one gulp of water she’ll swallow them all at once. I could not believe that...so she showed me. She pulled out 5 of the largest pills I’ve ever seen in my life. She laid them all neatly on the table for me to admire. With a swift motion of the wrist, she grabbed them all in her hand, gave them a little shake, popped them in her mouth, took a sip of coffee and the next thing, she is already talking to me again… Unfathomable!
After I was done picking up my jaw from the floor and re-attaching it all back together, I asked her to see the biggest pill up close one more time. She pulled one out of the bottle and put it on the table again for me to stare at in disbelief.
I didn’t know what to say… I can’t remember what I said… I was in such state of awe; I think I just drooled a little on the table cloth.
It was the best object lesson of my life! It is possible to swallow huge pills and survive! I will remember that forever, but especially the day I have to swallow my own pill. For now, I thank God for giving me hope and for showing me that He can help me do this…that it is not an impossible feat.
I am relying 100% on Him for this one, probably like I never relied on Him before. It's going to be just Him and me gathered around that pill. This is going to be the time where He is going to show me what His power can do. I mean, I tried swallowing a Tylenol this morning and I couldn’t! I feel horrible and scared…but He will show me on that day what He can do when we allow Him. And it will be for His glory for there is no way I can do this myself. All who know me will know it was nothing but Him who helped me swallow that pill.
Perhaps, this will be the time when I will finally let go of my own self and let Him shine. Maybe that will be the day that my trust in Him will completely become unleashed as His Faithfulness is one more time irrevocably revealed!
I don’t know how He is going to do it. His ways to me are as indescribable as it was for me to figure out how my friend swallowed that handful of pills…it doesn’t really matter, however. What matters is that He already has a plan. He knows how He is going to deliver me through this. He knows how He is going to do it. Perhaps He’ll help me swallow it. Perhaps He’ll point me to an alternative route. I don’t know. His ways are infinite. All I know is that He WILL not abandon me now. He already has a way designed for me to get through this predicament. He will get me through this. I am in His care and that will never change regardless of how large them pills might be.